Can u guess the color palette of this one? 🌚 actually my art block hasn't passed till now, so I've been on hiatus for a while. He's a daily visitor these days but I decided to let him accompany me on my art journey lol soo I'm sorry for imperfections or eye cancer you might get to see..
btw this one is kinda unusual from what i usually draw x)) hope you don't mind the experiment !
Now to another more personal topic. Feel free to ignore it if you're not interested c:
You know half of 2019 has already passed.. living with anxiety and resurfacing wounds has put me into countless challenges, that also made me realize i still have a long way to go..
Can I really continue? Am I really a good for nothing? Will I ever be able to love myself?
I kept hitting the rock bottom and doubting myself a lot.. I kept wondering what others might think of me. Step by step I'm trying to work towards a better me.
My goal these days was to stand up for myself unapologetically. Deep down I know I have all the rights to do so, especially in situations that seem unfair and need boundaries. But carrying out my goal also meant going against my triggers that come with it.
You cannot imagine how much fear has overcome me, but despite my trembling voice I did it anyway. And you know what? The result was me having several anxiety attacks due to people's reactions.
I realized that healing is painful.. But it makes sense, since you gotta face your biggest fears and phobias..
It reminds you of what you went through in the past. You face feelings you never want to feel again. So it's painful.
So I hope you guys out there don't beat up yourself for breaking down from time to time. Don't be too hard on yourself. You can do it. ❤ ...