Yesterday I opened up about how not eating & rapid weight loss as a result of my tonsillectomy brought about an (unwanted) feeling of nostalgia, reminding me of the days of my eating disorder.
I use to talk about these days on Instagram a lot. As I’ve grown farther away from them and progressed more and more in my recovery, I rarely even think about those days anymore.
Do I still struggle sometimes? Yes.
Do I think that maybe, I’ll always struggle, just less and less? Also, yes.
Things that affect us deeply (whether its ED, loss, mental illness, trauma, whatever you face in your own life) may stay with us forever. Like scars from physical damage, mental and emotional damage can too go with us throughout life.
The way I choose to look at this – we grow through the things we go through. Some of the hardest times of our live also become the most trivial- they teach us how to fall, change, grow, and rise.
I would not wish an eating disorder on my worst enemy, but I’m also thankful that I went through what I did. It made me appreciate my whole self, it made me headstrong & resilient, & it inspired me to share my story to help others who may feel like they’ll never come up for air. You will ❣️
Deets- a plate that took me roughly 45 minutes to eat with my throat 🥴 Beautiful flakey roasted salmon with sautéed mushrooms & spinach, & @cafesilvium sweet potatoes that my friends there were so kind as to send along to me 🥺 ...
A couple more from Tech Titans Awards Gala last month! 😻😻 ...
Happy Birthday to the love of my life, eternal companion and the rock that holds our family together. He is generous, charitable and hysterically funny . He works so hard to make all of our dreams come true. He was a firm testimony of the Savior and importance of family. Thanks for choosing me. Forever grateful. #familyforever#bumpy#daddy#lovebeinghiswife ❤️ ...